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Trembling and with tears clinging to your cheeks, you looked up at Mikasa. Her cold, blank stare scared you, and since you knew that she protected Eren with full passion, you had an actual reason to be afraid. As if she was a growling stray dog that was about to attack, you looked to the side, avoiding her eyes.
“Listen,” Mikasa interrupted your thoughts, making you flinch.
“I want Eren to be happy...” You could hear sadness in her voice, even if it was very decent.
“And… Well, you caused all this. Eren is sobbing in the basement right now. You should go to him and apologise.”
Feeling offended, you forgot about your fear of this girl and snapped back angrily,
“As if it were that simple. Can’t you understand that-”
“It is your fault that he is in this state!” She growled, interrupting you.
Something was wrong here. Usually Mikasa would act all composed and serious. You could never tell how she actually felt, but this time it was different. Her facial expression showed tiny aspects of anger, barely noticeable, and you could hear a growing desperation in her voice.
She must be very worried about Eren…, you thought.
You felt sorry for being the cause of so many problems for others. Calming yourself down, you sighed and spoke in a quiet voice, showing compassion to the girl in front of you, “How can Eren even know if he loves me? We haven’t known each other for long…”
“Oh, you really think that? Pfft,” she asked sarcastically. “Eren’s known you since you joined the trainees.”
What? How?, you thought, trying to make sense of this statement.
“He had always admired you from a distance. Everyone knew it. Except you, I suppose.”
“Oh,” you muttered in surprise. That explains a lot.
“But how could I decide if I love him back? I, from my point of view, have only known him for a few days… I don’t know what kind of person he is. I don’t know his favourite food, his hobbies, his dreams or anything other personal. I know nothing!”
It became clear that Mikasa didn’t sympathise with you at all, because she started baring her teeth, hissing and growling at you. Not sure whether she was going to punch you or do something worse, you stepped back in fear and slipped back to your 'please don’t kill me' face.
“Grr, for your information, Eren is the kindest person I know! You are damn lucky to have someone like him that close to you.”
Seemingly realising that she had lost her cool, she calmed down and returned to the blank, emotionless stare you were used to see from her.
“In these few days you had him around you, what did you experience with him? What do you know about him yet?”
Thinking back to the sweet moments you had shared with Eren, before he had confessed to you, made you smile. “He is very kind and careful… He’s passionate and sometimes shy, basically a good person, I suppose…”
“Yeah… That’s him,” Mikasa whispered. The sadness in her voice was now more audible and clearer to you. “How can you not love him?”
Your eyes widened, surprised by how these simple words could change the entire image you had of Eren. At this moment (for you), unusual thoughts came to your mind.
What will you do when you’re older? You can’t stay here in the HQ, hiding from expeditions, not forever. Maybe it wouldn’t be bad to settle down, finding yourself some peace, far away from war and other dangers. It would be nice to marry and you wouldn’t mind some kids either. This way you could have the family you never had before, since your parents had left you, and they didn’t care much about you before as well. But would Eren be someone you could fulfill this dream with? There’s no doubt that he would be good to you, but he is a Titan-shifter after all, and humanity needs him to fight, too. Still, you could imagine you and him being happy together.
It was the first time you thought of him this way. The idea of him, being with you, loving you and caring for you, pleased you more and more and there came one final thought… Is this love?
After a while you lifted your head, showing an excited smile, and spoke,
“I suppose you’re right! I should really go and talk to Eren.”
Walking around the corner you stopped and turned back to Mikasa one last time.
“Thank you for pushing me… I really needed it.”
She gave you a mournful fake smile, then you ran off. You were too excited to notice her sadness, but even if you had, you likely wouldn’t come to an idea about how Mikasa felt about you and Eren becoming a couple.
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Eren’s POV
Why.
I’ve been waiting for such a long time. Back in the Training Camp, when she wouldn’t even know my name, I used to watch her from a distance. No matter how much I tried to ignore her, my sight would always find its way to her. At first I wouldn’t acknowledge my feelings for her. My goal in life had always been to exterminate all the Titans. There was no room for any distractions. Weak feelings would just pull me down. … Like now.
Anyway, I couldn’t help it. Even though I didn’t know her in person back then, I had started to fancy her for all the little things about her. Well, in the end of our education I knew that I was likely never going to see her again. Whether it be because of her choosing a different military branch than me or her dying in battle. Seeing her dying would rip my heart into pieces, as was the same when my mother died. No. I couldn’t allow myself to get too attached to another person. Well, that’s what I used to think at that time, so I did my best to forget about her.
So, why did I even try to make her my girlfriend? I should’ve known better. She probably had a man already. There was no chance that I was the only person who fancied her. Why would she pick me? What was I thinking? She would have never returned the feelings of 'a suicidal bastard'. I could have had a nice friendship with her, but no, I wanted more and I had ruined everything instead.
People say that love would feel wonderful. So, why does it hurt so much?
Lying in my bed, curled up into a ball, I tightened the grip to my blanket and pulled it over my head. Even though I knew that I was alone, I wouldn’t want anyone to see me in this state. A grown man shouldn’t cry. Tears are for the weak. I’m strong.
I am strong.
There was a noise. Someone had opened the heavy door to the basement. I could tell that it was a female, since the approaching steps kinda sounded like clacking heels. The only female who would visit me here at night would be Mikasa, but she wasn’t welcome. Not now.
“Go away, Mikasa,” I growled.
“Eren. It’s me,” the female responded. “[Name].”
Chapter 9.0: fav.me/d74uewt
Chapter 9.2: You are here
Chapter 10.2: (soon)
Read Levi's Ending here: fav.me/d74ukh8
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Ohhhhh, this teenage love thing is getting exciting <3
How is Eren going to react? What do you think? ^^
Even though I'm almost finished with Eren's ending, it's going to take
a while until the very last chapter goes public. Read more about my
problems with time here -> fav.me/d74vgeu
I recommend to read Levi's Ending as well, this way you might
understand some future parallels in the story line.
